My Saturday morning began early because I had to be up to welcome the furnace cleaning professionals who were coming to clean the furnace and ducting of our NEW HOUSE. I got one heck of a deal for this service through the GROUPON app on my iPHONE. The guys were incredible and delivered service with a smile - the house just got a little cold because our FRONT DOOR was open.
Mr. Hall and I then decided to find the 'perfect' RUG for our living room. We began our hunt at Home Depot but were disappointed when the colours of the rug didn't match those of the images on my MACBOOK. We continued on our hunt, but not before stopping at Tim's and complaining about the number of VEHICLES in the drive-thru. Here we picked up our favourite HOLIDAY FLAVOURED BEVERAGE - and then we were on our way to IKEA.
At IKEA we continued in search of the 'perfect' RUG. We ended up finding one that we thought would work - while also picking up a few other ESSENTIALS (yeah, right...). We drove home and parked our CAR in the GARAGE and unloaded our PARCELS. We soon found our that the RUG didn't work. It wasn't large enough for our LIVING ROOM - despite the colour being 'perfect'.
Before heading to my hair appointment, Mr. Hall and I made LUNCH. We complained that we had to eat LEFTOVERS again - so much BEEF this week. But shortly after, I was off in our CAR again.
When my HAIR hadn't turned out as well as I had hoped, I decided to head out in the search of more Christmas decorations. I spent over 3 hours looking for the perfect shades of DECORATIONS in blues, pinks, purples, greens, oranges, and reds. Then I came home and decorated our lit CHRISTMAS TREE. I was, again, disappointed in my CHOICES. I had purchased too many ITEMS of the same shape and size.
I was soon getting frustrated and disappointed that the Christmas tree hadn't turned out the way I had hoped - I was even starting to resent that I had to put it up this weekend so it would be up when we got back from MEXICO.
That's when it hit me. I had spent the whole day complaining about small, insignificant details. Beyond insignificant these details weren't even necessary!
I had complained about having to get up early for the furnace cleaners, so that my house (which I am so lucky to have) stays warm this winter. I have SHELTER AND HEAT! I had been disappointed that my technology (which I am so lucky to have) was not up-to-par with reality. I had complained that there were too many people in the drive-thru and that getting my coffee (which I was so lucky to have) took "too long". I had complained about the rug that we didn't really NEED. I had complained about lunch because I had to eat the same thing more than once in a week. We should be so lucky to have FOOD. I complained when my hair wasn't as great as I wanted it to be. I frustrated myself looking for the perfect shade of pink?!? I had resented that I had to set the tree up early because I SAID SO (because I was going on vacation) - because I felt the pressure to have everything PERFECT for CHRISTMAS.
LIKE REALLY?!?! WOW!?!
When did I become this person? When did stuff like this consume my mind, life, energy, spirit so much that I had to slap myself in the face and give myself a wake-up call.
I'm not really proud of the way I acted today. My thoughts, my words, my actions. I am a better person than who I was today.
The reason I shared this is I just thought that some of you, too, might have been having a day similar to mine. Looking for the perfect present, the perfect holiday outfit for your Christmas, your perfect recipe for a party, or something of the like. I know that tonight I am going to spend some time being truly grateful for the life I have - including the parts I've created, the parts I've been given, the parts I've yet to create, and the parts that I have yet to give.
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| Our first Christmas tree in our (warm) house. |
In a month, so much of this won't even matter - so remember what does.
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